It was a topsy turvy roller coaster ride from the past 2 months.. Tho this year was already a topsy turvy one, but the past 2 months was even crazier.

So much thoughts on my mind, get to see so much, get to experience so much, it’s crazy how 2 months could make me see so much I really wonder what am I doing..

I’m tuning in IU’s music, realize her music matches my mood.

Crazy how the people around me shared so much with me about life, trying to pick me up from the most bottom, yet I still can’t find the inner peace in myself. Was it too much passion I placed in into things I shouldn’t..? That I got myself hurt time and time again and still so determined to push things on.. Sometimes I just wanna fuck it, and freaking get going w my life. But why I kept got pulled back?

One thing I know.. I’m really not happy about my life now. But where do I go about from where I am now..? Do I choose myself over things or do I choose to follow my heart?

Can’t really share what I wanna here, but I’m certainly hurt. Very. Not sure what can I say about all these.. Perhaps I got everything to be blamed. Since I chose this myself, I have to bear all the responsibility for being hurt…..