Just a short writeup.. have been quite emotional lately. Having so much thoughts, like how I always do. Haha!

Not sure if anyone’s reading here. But today I just felt like I needed a space where not much people know of, for an outlet source of all my contained unhappiness hidden in my heart..

Perhaps tuning myself into some slow and sad songs makes me even sadder. That’s why I’m here to release my bottled unhappiness.

I felt I put in too much emotions into people whom I really care for… Sometimes I ask myself should I put in my feelings into it or can I control myself and hold myself back.. So! Then I won’t feel so compressed when they disappoint me. Was it me that I get disappointed easily or was it me that I hold onto some expectations that I shouldn’t have…

There and then, I find myself wanting to keep myself pre-occupied with things so I do not have too much time to let my mind idle too much and end up feeling so upset by things. I hate how negativity gets into me.. it felt so uncomfortable I can’t even get things/work done properly. I really wanna be okay all again.

When can I perk myself up and be ready for challenges in life again? Please let me have the strength and ability to tide over all these negativity so I can be productive on my work all over again.

Didn’t want to talk about this to anyone.. hence leaving it here.. Wish that all the gods out there would give me faith in life to be happy again 🙂