Time do pass very quickly everyday when we keep ourselves busy with work, life, and people.
Honestly, everyday that passes by was a lesson for tomorrow in my current job. I’ve met so many people thru my work that I never imagined I would have if I were still from my past work where I only have to serve that very few people in my own company.. It was certainly lifechanging and I wouldn’t had it any better if I were still from my past job. Of course! Many things there are pros and cons. There are nice people around, but there are also people who taught you many things in life. Never felt that my life was so challenged every other day until I come into this particular job. However, I’m trying to think of the positive things about every misfortune that happened to me during this journey just because what would I have learnt or seen if I hadn’t gone through all these? Haha!
I guess having the right friends really was empowering when you need advise or perspectives that you may not see when you’re at certain circumstances. I made many friends, but I also kept few one close to me and just hope that they will be in my life permanently even if one day I decided to leave this industry due to better opportunities that may be there for me. Not sure what lies ahead for me, but I do have certain plans for myself and I hope I could pull through this journey while I’m at it, to deliver at least the responsibility I have to, that I remember of, when I asked for help to get into this job previously.
Never had any grit so tough till date I’m happy I came in to experience this much. Like wow! When I look back, there’s so much episodes, almost like I bag myself half a lifetime worth of experience to so many different things, from changing my personality of being introverted to becoming extroverted now, from a person who just want to do my scope and go home to now, I felt like if some things are not done to its best, then what’s the point of doing it, or even things like thinking how do I make things work or how do I have a workaround over things that may seemed so difficult to achieve, thinking of the 101 methods that I could counter just to make everyone be pleased with the situations. WOW, really very very extremely intense. The things I go through to think of how do I make people have benefit out of what I can fight for them.. not expecting for a return, but I’d just hope one day they see my good intentions and appreciate what I did for them. Probably sometimes the only return I want from people that I did so much for, was just to be appreciated. I guess many people don’t see the importance of valuing things, appreciating things that really came a long way just to get to them. I used to think by explaining myself was important so people know your intentions and why you do certain things. But I guess over time, I feel that it could be true that silence could be a louder than expressing yourself in words.
I guess.. not everyone is receptive to what you want to say and not everyone could accept things you meant well, but just didn’t put it across through the most refined way.
As for my own personal life.. this year was full of ups and downs. I’m just really so worn out till a point I just told myself maybe I should just believe that when the time is right, everything will just fall into place. I guess I just lost the spirit of fighting hard for things to stay and if it doesn’t, then it doesn’t. LOL!
Oh well. Life. Haha! The old mind in me just killed every fighting spirit I have to keep things going sometimes. I think I definitely channel more energy into my work rather than my personal stuffs. Oh god! Speak of the devil, why is this job sooooooooo draining! I’m tired after typing all these LOL!
Anyway, probably just wanna end this post by saying… I really do miss a lot of missing pieces to my life and I really hope some time in life, everything that I miss would fall back into place again, really.